I’ll be honest, i feel quite guilty for coming back and only having 2 drawings to post. Even while i have a style i like, a shading style that works for me, idk im lacking motivation in everything. Not in school, no job, no one to talk to. Which is on me im aware, but then family sucks ass too. I considered sharing a documentary i’ve made of the things bothering me in life, the shit i’ve faced, and being my absolute most raw and vulnerable. But man that’s scary, and i feel i’d be taking advantage of for sharing it. But i also would like to be understood more emotionally and personally. I mean i got support but thats for my art. Not judging that tho..

Come to think of it over the years i’ve become more closed off than ever. And yet i wonder why im unapproachable..Hmm. If it wasn’t already OBVIOUS!! To those who known me im the fattest, biggest, girthiest, Pico fan [meat ridin that shit]. I only care about him. And have been doing so for 3 years, going on 4. But ofc i like more than that. My other interests include Postal, Chucky, Happy Tree Friends, MSI, The Alien franchise, Alien Isolation, JTHM, I love Trevor Philips, FNAF, Invader Zim, Slendytubbies [ye u heard that right] Session 9, Charlie Murder, Oh yeah also Jackass [Johnny Knoxville wink wink] Honestly im shy when i share a lot of my interests. But i suppose i can. So music wise..I do not give a fuck about the whole nu-metal and death metal argument. Now, Korn, Loathe, Ice Cube, Dr Dre, Snoop, Eazy E, Xasthur, Bit of Dystopia, KMFDM, Ayesha Erotica, Bit of Fleshwater, Bit of Sade, Bit of Three 6 Mafia, Can’t forget SPM, Frank Sinatra, And some other genres i can’t fuckin explain. Idk i’m always down for questions if it ever comes to it tho.

☠︎︎Wanna set some boundaries

+I still don’t want pico x cass supporters interacting with me. [like seriously yo stop following me after i blocked u]

+I don’t condone racism, anti LGBTQ, romanticizing of ED, self harm, and real killers. And don’t use the excuse of having “dark humor” when ur in denial of being immature and can’t take responsibility for shit.

+If u wanna use my work, i ask that u credit me or if u wanna u can just ask me and we’ll be cool.

+At the moment i am not taking commissions unless said otherwise.

+Understand i have trust issues and as stated in my first blog i’m a “bit” mental lol. If u wanna DM me..Please tell me first and what for. My discord is xkullexon.

+I will not be on any other social medias besides Newgrounds and Pinterest. Just a personal preference.

☠︎︎And that should be all, if i forgot anything, i’ll fix it. Thanks.

I’m aware i’ve only just now rejoined and this may be a bad impression for new followers. But for those who know me, whether as a follower, or even personally. I’m sorry to my friends i’ve abandoned and distance myself from. And any aggression i’ve shown to others who absolutely didn’t deserve it. But as of recently, i’ve seen a psychiatrist, and have been diagnosed with bipolar 2 and complex PTSD. While it does explain everything, it’s no excuse, and im honestly insecure about this. I rather people don’t mention it. But i hope u can understand me better now, and i know ive prob intimidated people with how fuckin emotional and aggressive i get. I’m sorry. But lately i’ve been taking pills and changed up my room and been keeping a good healthy schedule and taking care of myself better. But understand that pills can only do so much, i can’t be “fixed” it only lessons the symptoms. I’ve just had so much shit over the years i felt that distancing myself from others would help me and them. Like i was doing u a favor. Because i still don’t entirely trust myself, but im willing to try again, because this loneliness is eating me up. But anyway..I hope u can all understand. I’ve missed u.